Felt like doing a slightly more personal post today. I’ve been having a series of mid-life crises these days–not entirely sure why. Actually, I do know why. I’ll be done with my grad school program in just one more year, and after that, I’m going to get thrown into the real world, ready or not. One of the reasons why I went to grad school in the first place was to figure out what I wanted to do (which is funny since that was supposed to happen by the time I finished undergrad), since I wasn’t hugely passionate about my undergrad major. But now I’m afraid that a year still isn’t enough time.
Maybe I have no idea what I want to do. I mean, I know what I like doing in my spare time, but are my interests in my hobbies enough to constitute a career? That’s everyone’s dream, I’m sure, so maybe my expectations for my future career have been set too high. I don’t know about you guys, but what scares me the MOST about the real world isn’t the thought of not having a job, it’s having a job that I don’t absolutely love. I can’t even imagine having a 9-5 schedule every single day revolving around a job that I just feel meh about. I want to LOVE my job. To be able to jump out of bed every morning EXCITED to go to work. But maybe that’s too idealistic of me.
There are just so many questions I don’t think I’ll have to answers to by the time I get thrown into the real world. I don’t want to wait my whole life to finally start doing what I love. And I guess that’s why I started blogging. It was a way for me to write about whatever I wanted–to explore, express, and share places and things that truly interest me without having to worry about making everything fit in a specific mold or frame. So in that sense, this blog is very special to me. And I wanted to thank YOU all for taking an interest in MY interests. It really means a lot.