Felt like doing a slightly more personal post today. I’ve been having a series of mid-life crises these days–not entirely sure why. Actually, I do know why. I’ll be done with my grad school program in just one more year, and after that, I’m going to get thrown into the real world, ready or not. One of the reasons why I went to grad school in the first place was to figure out what I wanted to do (which is funny since that was supposed to happen by the time I finished undergrad), since I wasn’t hugely passionate about my undergrad major. But now I’m afraid that a year still isn’t enough time.
Maybe I have no idea what I want to do. I mean, I know what I like doing in my spare time, but are my interests in my hobbies enough to constitute a career? That’s everyone’s dream, I’m sure, so maybe my expectations for my future career have been set too high. I don’t know about you guys, but what scares me the MOST about the real world isn’t the thought of not having a job, it’s having a job that I don’t absolutely love. I can’t even imagine having a 9-5 schedule every single day revolving around a job that I just feel meh about. I want to LOVE my job. To be able to jump out of bed every morning EXCITED to go to work. But maybe that’s too idealistic of me.
There are just so many questions I don’t think I’ll have to answers to by the time I get thrown into the real world. I don’t want to wait my whole life to finally start doing what I love. And I guess that’s why I started blogging. It was a way for me to write about whatever I wanted–to explore, express, and share places and things that truly interest me without having to worry about making everything fit in a specific mold or frame. So in that sense, this blog is very special to me. And I wanted to thank YOU all for taking an interest in MY interests. It really means a lot.
XOXO,
I felt exactly the same way. And then I taught for a couple of years. And now here I am. You’re going to take a lot of twists and turns, but believe me, you’re going to be awesome.
Until then, stay present. You’ll get there. <3
Thank you 🙂 I guess the twists and turns are what make life interesting.
I totally get what you are saying, but let me just say it again, I love your blog so whatever is helping/forcing you to blog you should look at it as a great gift? Can I say that? Yes, I think I can.. So hurray for mid-life crisis? 😀 best wishes
That’s such an optimistic way to look at it, thank you! Cheers to figuring out the rest of life, haha 🙂
I know exactly what you mean but don’t give up! It’ll come to you and who knows? Maybe you’ll get to create a job you love. I know blogging has helped me be open to different ideas/possibilities and I have met some incredible people along the way. 🙂
Thanks, Stephanie! That means a lot. I really do hope so–that’s the ultimate dream 🙂 And like you said, the blogging community has been so so incredibly supportive.
I am feeling the same tike you! But i just want to say thank you for creating this blog so amazing i am enjoying every single post! Have a nice rest of the day! x
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Thank you for the kind words, Brigita. Hope you have a wonderful day as well 🙂
This spoke to my heart. I feel like I am going to grad school in a way to push off the inevitable. I am super excited and hopeful to get into my program, but I have no idea what I am doing. It is always good to be reminded I am not alone in that!
Girl, I know exactly what you mean! You’re definitely not alone 🙂
I completely understand what you mean and where you’re coming from! I’m in a very similar boat as you. And nothing wrong with being idealistic–gotta dream big and achieve it! Wishing you all the best.
Thanks Lauren! I hope the hard work and big dreams will pay off eventually 🙂
I can totally understand your idealistic nature. I was stuck at a deadbeat job and I still have no idea about where to go from here, but uncertainty is what makes life more interesting. Cheers to whatever new comes you way in 2016!
That is very true! Life’s always full of surprises 🙂 Wishing you the best for 2016 as well!
Thank you :)!